Who Am I Becoming?

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Who am I becoming?
This is a question I ask myself often. It keeps my heart, mind and character in check.
However, in all honesty- lately I’ve been struggling with my answer.
I’m sure it’s part of the process. Part of the journey. Part of growing.
But I’ve always been a rule follower. I’m the good girl. The compliant and cooperative one. That’s me. Or… So I thought.
In fact, come to find out I actually just like the path of least resistance.
Why? Well, because ‘control’, of course.
Why control? Well, because of fear.

It’s an underlining root that’s been in me my whole life. Yet, not discovered until a few years ago. The Lord is continuously uprooting lies… but first he has to reveal them to me and allow me to process the pain with each discovery.
Don’t rush people past their pain. You don’t have to understand or make it better. You actually can’t make it better. Just let folks be where they are and love them as they process through.
Who am I becoming?
Today, I don’t really have an answer without making one up. So I’d rather just not have an answer. And that’s okay.
I’m just trusting God in the process. Exactly what He wants from us. I’m holding tight to His promises and trusting Him wholeheartedly.
I pray that I continue to become more and more a reflection of Christ. Even if that means lots of shifting and pruning and uprooting. I’ll take it.
He will complete the work He’s started. That’s for sure.

-April

One thought on “Who Am I Becoming?

  1. April, I really enjoyed reading this. I love where you said, “Don’t rush people past their pain. You don’t have to understand or make it better. You actually can’t make it better. Just let folks be where they are and love them as they process through.” We are so bad about wanting to help heal people (I know I’ve been guilty) and that’s just ridiculous. We just need to love them along their journey to “being” just like Christ does us.
    PS – I dreamt last night that we finally met. šŸ™‚ One day…
    Blessings,
    Julie G

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