When You’re Not ‘Got’


Sometimes people are not going to get you.  They’re just not. You’re going to be in a room full of people and feel alone.  You’re going to be in the midst of conversation and feel like your words are coming out but not being comprehended by the person you’re talking with.  You’re going to share your dream and not receive enthusiasm in return.

You know why people won’t alway get you?  Because they’re not you.  You know why people won’t always get your dream?  Because it’s yours.  They were not meant to ‘get’ your dream.

So I’ve cleared that up for you.  What now?  Do you sulk?  Do you mope because no one understands?  No!

The dreams and desires in your heart are so special.  If they were made for everyone else they wouldn’t be so special.  They would exist among the majority and they wouldn’t stand out.

You are equipped with unique talents.  You are a story and the last chapter has not been written yet.  All of your life experience, good and bad, is paving the way for greatness! Greatness doesn’t reveal itself in large arenas and with tons of followers – greatness reveals itself at the dinner table with your family.  Greatness reveals itself at the grocery store when you look someone in the eye, smile, and say hello to them.

Greatness is in you because of you and not because of what you’re doing and accomplishing.  Greater is He who is in you than he who is in the world (1 John 4:4). You can be confident in who God created you to be and the dreams He has placed into your heart.

So people don’t get you? So what?! They don’t get me either.  We don’t let that stop us.  We don’t get discouraged and spend energy trying to make people understand. We just be. AND we just be okay with ‘being’.

If they don’t get you – then you know you’re doing it right. If you’re pissing people off (with the right heart of course :o) )  – then you know you’re doing it right. The best it yet to come but you have to continue.  You have to hold steady.  You have to be okay with being you.  You have to be okay when people don’t get you.

So here’s to people not ‘getting’ us! And here’s to carrying on anyway!

You are loved dearly!




Fear hand

Fear is stupid.  Just stupid.

I know that’s not very deep or mature … but it just is.

Fear robs you from moving forward.  Fear takes you captive and dictates your every move.  The dreams and desires you have in your heart take a back seat in life when you let fear drive you.

It’s easy to stay where it’s “safe” and ordinary.  So many people miss out on what they are called to do in life because they are okay in the comfortable.  That doesn’t mean the comfortable is good – it’s just means that its familiar and ‘safe’.  That’s just not good enough anymore.

You were called to great things.  That doesn’t mean big outcomes and big audiences.  Sure – maybe for some of you, but BIG and GREAT doesn’t necessarily mean fame and fortune.  BIG and GREAT are what’s trapped in you but DYING to get out and LIVE.  Don’t grieve the BIG and GREAT in you!

I told a friend earlier, in regards to people grieving their dreams and purpose in life due to the fact that they’re caught up in drama and filth – ”

“I want them to WANT more for their life and to do something with the gifts and dreams in their hearts.  They upset me because they are robbing the world of what they have to offer… instead they sit and take a dump on it.  lol!”

Sorry.  That’s just a glimpse into “texting with April”.

Seriously though!  It breaks my heart to see so many people doing what their mama and ‘nem do because they think that’s who they are.  That’s NOT who they are.  It’s not who you are!

You have something in you that only YOU have.  It doesn’t look like someone else’s gift.  It doesn’t operate like someone else’s gift.  It’s yours. If you don’t use it, you rob the world and you rob me.

 I’m offended. Everyone else always seem to be offended over something and now I’m offended.  I’m offended because you’re robbing me.  You’re robbing me of something wonderful. You’re holding back something incredible!  Something only YOU were designed for!

When you play small and stay involved in petty games and slanderous talk, you sit in a stagnant swamp and rot there. You were made for so much more than that and you know it!

I’m challenging you to step out.  I’m challenging you to shake off the weight that tells you ‘you’re not good enough’ and ‘you’ll never make it’.  That’s a lie.  That a lie straight from hell and it keeps you locked up in fear.  I don’t think you’re afraid of failure.  I think you’re afraid of success.  I think you’re afraid of possibly losing yourself and the FEAR of the unknown.  Guess what?  It’s all unknown.  We can plan and map all we want just to make ourselves FEEL more in control – but ultimately it’s unknown to us and we’re not in control. So what do you have to lose?!

Get up from the stagnant waters where you rest and move on. You’ve spent way too much time there! What about your friends? …  What about them? The heartbreaking truth is that when you decide to do better for yourself and step into a future that holds MORE for you, some of your closest ‘friends’ will be the first ones to try and discourage you.

I pray your eyes open to what friends really are and what their character should reflect.  If they’re pulling you back – they gotta go! They are more than welcome to come along but if you feel resistance, they GOTS TA GO. That includes family too!

Pray.  Pray without ceasing. Pray and ask God for direction and discernment. I was stuck in a mental battle of manipulation and fear for YEARS.  Lies that were spoken over me were so real inside of my head.  Guilt, shame, always trying to play both sides of the fence so no one would be mad at me.  Trying to please one person just to find out that another is mad at me … then going to please that person just to find out the other person is mad at me again.  It’s exhausting.  It’s captivity. It’s hindering you and it keeps you locked up and sitting in a stagnant place.

This is serious business. I’m tellin’ ya, I’m offended.  There are no more excuses. This is YOUR life and you only get one shot.  You don’t want to look back at the end of this journey and have regret.  None of us are getting out of this alive on this side of eternity – so why not do it NOW!?

This is not a motivational blog to build you up for this moment just to let you crash and burn hard in the next few days.  You don’t have to figure it all out today.  You don’t have to accomplish it all today.  You just have to make a choice.  Just one choice.  Do you want to stay where you are? If not, what’s the one thing you’re going to do to change the course of your life?  Just one thing.  What is it?

Start there.  If you don’t know where to start I would suggest starting with Jesus (I’m assuming you already know Him, but if not and you want to know Him, message me and let’s chat).  Stop what you’re doing and allow Him to meet you where you’re at. Your words don’t have to be pretty and flowing.  Your verbiage doesn’t have to sound like the person on TV or at church.  Just call out to Him – just like you would to a friend and tell Him that you’ve hit a wall.  You’re done. You don’t want this way of life anymore.  You know He has put incredible things in you and you want Him to cultivate those gifts and talents.

Surrender.  Throw your hands up (do it right now) and let The Lord know that you’re done trying to control everything.  You’re done trying to make everyone happy. You’re done with the swamp.  Surrender your whole life to Jesus and ask Him to show you what that looks like.

Get around some good people and get some good stuff in your head! If you’re scrolling through social media and filling your head with junk, that’s going to flow through you.  It’s going to poison you.  If you sit and watch TV that is nothing but drama and filth – it’s going to poison you. If you hang around people that have nothing better to do with their time than sit and talk about other people’s lives, it’s going to poison you.  What do you think is going to happen when you start to grow and step out into what you were designed for?!  You are who you hang with.  No matter how hard you try to dance around it … your friends will rub off on you.  Make sure you’ve got good folks around you. If your friends reference you as “Bitch, slut, or hoe” in a joking manner, I can tell you right now – that’s a major red flag!  You deserve better than that.  Yeah, you.  YOU deserve better.

I’m praying for each person who reads this message.  I pray that a fire starts to burn in your soul that will not let you rest until you make a change (you’re welcome)!  :o)

You were created on purpose with purpose.  You have something that was placed in you that you’re supposed to share with this world for God’s glory! You’re robbing a lot of people by staying where you’re at … by sitting in the swamp, by letting fear tell you who you are and what you’re going to do with your life.

There is no chain that the love of Jesus can’t break. None.  Not one.

No more holding back.  No more playing small. Fear is stupid. Stupid.

It’s time to rise, my friend.

You are loved beyond what you could ever imagine.

Your friend,



A Word For Monday


It has always been hard for me to wake up really early in the morning. It’s not that I’m not a morning person- I have just always felt this heaviness towards facing the new day. It’s hard to explain but it’s as if I dread getting up in my body.

The enemy has always used this time to whisper lies in my ear and bring oppression.
You know what, though? The devil is a liar! I don’t even spend time listening to him. I speak truth over myself and the day ahead.

I thank God for all He has done and prophesy over what He will do.
When you’ve been raked over the coals with anxiety and depression for a year of your life and overcome- you learn that the devil is a roaring lion with no teeth! He just talks. All bark- no bite. If you sit and dwell on him, what he’s doing, what he said, how you feel…you’ll eventually believe him.

Honestly, I don’t even try to reference him much anymore. He’s not even worth my time. I don’t deny the fact that he’s there but I’ve just discovered when our focus is on Jesus and not on the lies of the enemy, we don’t waste our time on silliness.
We have already overcome. We are already free. We have all authority to crush the devil. He cannot harm us. He is the father of lies. He comes to steal, kill, and destroy. He is the accuser. He brings confusion. We are not unaware of his schemes. He is defeated.
There is no place for fear in your life. That doesn’t mean you don’t feel fear- it means you don’t let it be your god. You don’t let it tell you what to do. You don’t let it stop you.
So, if you have a hard time getting up in the early morning like me, or feel that heaviness at other times in your life- just remember… There is a yappy little lion, with no teeth, that creates a big shadow so he appears bigger than he is… He has no authority.
I’m rolling my eyes for putting this much attention on the enemy, but I just felt someone needed this.
Eyes and heart on Jesus- even when you don’t feel like it.

Faith is not a feeling. God’s Word is truer than how you feel.
Happy Monday!