The other day I was having a tough time. I cried because some people can be so rude and unjust. As I was bawling it out on the phone with my husband the Holy Spirit brought the word “endure” heavily to my heart. I kept hearing it over and over again. “Endure”, “endure, April.”

By the end of my 20 minute phone conversation with my husband I felt like my perspective was back in line. Tony has a great way of sharing the Word and ways of God in trying times.
Later I conducted a study as the word “endure” continued to stay heavily on my heart. Check this out… pretty cool:

English definition of Endure: Verb – 1. Suffer (something painful or difficult) patiently. 2. Tolerate (someone or something).

I wanted to go a little further so I looked up a Greek translation of the word “endure”:
The Greek word is “Hupomeno”, which means :

A1. Patience, Patient, Patiently [Noun] hupomone lit., “an abiding under” (hupo, “under,” meno, “to abide”), is almost invariably rendered “patience.” “Patience, which grows only in trial, James 1:3, may be passive, i.e., == “endurance,” as,
(a) in trials, generally, Luke 21:19 (which is to be understood by Matt 24:13); cp. Rom 12:12; James 1:12;
(b) in trials incident to service in the gospel, 2 Cor 6:4; 2 Cor 12:12; 2 Tim 3:10;
(c) under chastisement, which is trial viewed as coming from the hand of God our Father, Heb 12:7;
(d) under undeserved affliction, 1 Pet 2:20; or active, i.e. == “persistence, perseverance,” as
(e) in well doing, Rom 2:7 (AV, “patient continuance”);
(f) in fruit bearing, Luke 8:15;
(g) in running the appointed race, Heb 12:1.
“Patience perfects Christian character, James 1:4, and fellowship in the patience of Christ is therefore the condition upon which believers are to be admitted to reign with Him, 2 Tim 2:12; Rev 1:9. For this patience believers are ‘strengthened with all power,’ Col 1:11, ‘through His Spirit in the inward man,’ Eph 3:16.

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That blows my mind!!!

So then I looked up “Patient” because we all know how to use that word in a sentence but sometimes the most eye-opening experiences come from checking out the definition:

Adjective – Able to wait without becoming annoyed or anxious.

Do you think God might be telling you to endure right now? I know rotten times – trust me. I know what it feels like to be wrongfully accused or judged. I know what it’s like to have someone talk down to you or belittle you. You are not alone.

Endure, my friend … Endure.


God Is There Also

Around a year ago I had just received a job offer after being unemployed for 3 months, which is also during the time that I experienced paralyzing anxiety and panic on a minute by minute basis.  I was very nervous about going back to work and having a routine especially since I was freaked out by myself and my inability to hold a conversation over dinner with a friend without freaking out over some random fear that approached me.

The job offer came in through an email on my phone while I was hanging out with my friend for a morning play date.  I immediately started to freak out.  I was excited but confused of whether I was making the right decision if I accepted the offer.  “But what if this?!?” “But what if that?!?”  When you’re undergoing anxiety you can think of a TRILLION “what ifs”.

My friend turned, looked at me, and gave me the best response that I still think about often, she said “God is there also.”  She could tell I was confused by the look on my face and explained to me, “When you make the right decision, God is there.  When you make the wrong decision, God is there also.”

The light went on!  How true is that? God is there also.  He’s there when we make the right decisions and He’s there when we make the wrong decisions.  Have you made some wrong decisions in your life?  I know I have!  When you look back at those places do you see where God worked it out?  He is so faithful even when we go the wrong direction or make the wrong choice.

The scripture says – “And we know that in all things God works for the good of those who love him” – Romans 8:28

Maybe you’re in the midst of your wrong decision right now… God is there also.

I believe that when we make the wrong choice from a GOOD heart, God’s grace fully covers that. I also believe when we are rotten and just straight up make a wrong choice because we want to – good heart or not – there are consequences for our actions BUT God is there.

Relax.  God is there also.




No Grip on Me

I belong to God.  Jesus Christ died to set me free and reconcile me to the Father.  I think we so easily over look that sacrifice.  I say we easily overlook it because I think that if people fully believed in Jesus Christ and understood His sacrifice for us – we could not go on living the way we do. 

For me- I believed that death had a grip on me which left me in chains of fear.  The bondage was so tight in my life that I felt there was no escape.

Only through reading the word and believing by Faith that God’s word is truer than how I felt, I started to stand firm in my position as a follower of Jesus Christ.

Death has lost its grip on me … and on you too, if you believe in Jesus Christ and live your life according to that belief.

…doesn’t mean you’re perfect … or that you always get it right ….

But you are reconciled with the Father, a new creation in Jesus Christ.

Chew on this today: You ARE free. Say it – I AM FREE!

Hosea 4:6 God says: “    my people are destroyed from lack of knowledge.”  I understand this verse well because I lived with a lack of knowledge for a long time and the enemy almost took me out. 

I pray that you fill your heart and head with the knowledge and power of Jesus Christ so you can take your stand against the enemy’s schemes.  There is no grip on you except the love of Jesus Christ … I’ll take that!

Healed, Whole, New,



The Sun Is On Its Way


Today I had to run a few errands which included grocery shopping.  The weather was fine as I made my first stop at a store but when I was finished and headed back to my car all I could see was darkness from where storm clouds had moved in unexpectedly. Luckily, I had just gotten the groceries in the car, parked my cart, and jumped in the car before the bottom fell out.  I sat in my car grateful that I had gotten everything loaded before the down pour and moved on to my next stop.

The rain had let up just enough for me to make a mad dash for the second store entrance without getting completely soaked but as soon as I entered the building a major down pour came again.  I went on about my business for about an hour and when I left that store I was amazed.  The rain had stopped, the sky was blue, only white clouds in the sky, and the sun was shining so bright.  If everything wasn’t still wet you would have never known that the down pour had happened at all.  It was amazing.

As I was heading back home I started to reflect on how God is so faithful in our lives.  Sometimes a down pour comes out of nowhere. It catches us off guard and sends us scurrying – looking for shelter – but for me personally it has been when I carry on with my life regardless of the storm, I turn around and there is sunshine, as if it came out of nowhere.

Think of one of the hardest times in your life.  Did sunshine make its way back to you? I know it did for me and it’s when I wasn’t actually looking for the sunshine.  I had decided to stand my ground, push through the storm and before I knew it, the sky was blue and the sun was shining.

Our God is a God of restoration.  Keep pushing and keep believing Him by faith.  The sunshine is on its way.

I’m so thankful for the Son.